The mother behind a viral maternity photo shoot, in which her baby bump was covered by 20,000 bees, is now mourning the loss of her child.
Emily Mueller, 33, of Akron, Ohio, wrote on Facebook earlier this week that doctors couldn’t find a heartbeat for baby Emersyn just days before he was due.
“I was so busy prepping for our upcoming event that I wasn't paying attention to baby movement […] I began to realize I had not felt baby move much and had contractions that felt different than any I have had before,” Mueller wrote. “Every detail of that moment is forever sketched into my mind and I cannot stop replaying it. Dr. Sutter sat on my right side looking at the screen and turned to me and said, 'Your baby has passed.'"
Mueller then continues to detail the heartbreaking experience of being induced and delivering their stillborn son.
“My heart instantly ached for any woman that has told me she had a stillborn,” the post continued. “How could I have never truly understood how horrible this was? How could I have never thought about these women who suffered in the way I was experiencing now? I feel selfish for never doing everything I could for any family who has told me about this.”
She said doctors are unsure what caused the stillbirth and they are still waiting for the results of the test.
Mueller, a beekeeper, went viral in April after a shocking maternity photo shoot licensed by SWNS where she was seen holding a queen bee in her hands that attracted a swarm of honeybees that gathered on her baby bump.
“I know a lot of people are looking at this video, thinking, ‘This lady is crazy,’” Mueller told InsideEdition.com in a previous interview. “And I understand completely. Many years ago, I was afraid of bees too.”
She said she was stung three times during the shoot, but experienced no negative side effects.
Baby Emersyn’s death followed two miscarriages, Mueller said. She was inspired to do the photo shoot because honeybees symbolize death and the beginning of new life.
“[Bees] came into my life in a time that we had just suffered a miscarriage. It was our second miscarriage and we were trying to get pregnant,” Mueller said. “I wanted to find an outlet for that emotion. That’s where everything fell into place for me — when honeybees entered into my life.”
Baby Emersyn is survived by his three siblings, Cadyn, 11, Madelynn, 4, and Westyn, 2.