Kate Gosselin in tears. In an INSIDE EDITION exclusive, Gosselin breaks down as she speaks about the toll Dancing with the Stars has taken on her because she's forced to be away from her eight kids in Pennsylvania.
"I tell my babysitter all the time I wish I was you. I wish I had your job," said Gosselin.
She continued, "My job takes me away from them and it's not easy to let somebody else pick them up from the bus stop. It's hard. It's really hard."
Usually after Dancing with the Stars is wrapped for the week, Gosselin takes a red-eye flight home. But this week, she's promoting her new book, I Just Want You To Know.
INSIDE EDITION's Jim Moret asked Gosselin, "What do you want people to know about you after they read this book?"
"That I am a mom with a really really huge heart, and that I'm not the monster that I'm painted to be," said Gosselin.
When Gosselin arrived at INSIDE EDITION's Los Angeles studios she was smiling on the surface, but seething inside.
Just hours earlier, across the country, her brother and sister-in-law went before child labor officials claiming Gosselin's kids were exploited during filming of Jon & Kate Plus 8.
Moret asked, "Do you feel at all betrayed by your brother for prompting that hearing?"
"Um, I do actually, because he has four children of his own and spending time in court and gallivanting to New York to complain about me, couldn't he be at home with his kids?" said Gosselin.
Her brother Kevin complained specifically about the infamous "potty training" episode. But Kate tells INSIDE EDITION that episode was actually filmed at her brother's house.
"He knows the truth and they've made a lot of money on going out and complaining about us," said Gosselin.
Moret asked, "Made money on you?"
"Oh yeah. Oh yeah. And I guess the money has run out because they are out complaining again. The truth is, I haven't allowed them to see my kids for two years," said Gosselin.
And there's more drama as Jon fights for full custody of the kids, claiming she is an absentee mom.
"I'm not an absentee mom. I'm on the phone, texting back and forth with whoever is taking care of my kids," said Gosselin.
Moret asked, "Do you have concerns about the custody issue?"
"Honestly, in my heart, I know it will work out to their benefit. I think the part I'm focusing on right now is why did this have to go to court because we were doing really well just handling it amongst ourselves. Of all the things I could say, I can say that was the really civil part of it," said Gosselin.